I just read two messages on my infertility board from two members. One got a bfn (big fat negative) on her pregnancy test today. The other just reported that she lost her pregnancy. Her levels just dropped. I don’t even know these women, and yet I am so sad at their losses. Here I am, with all the hope in the world, injecting myself three times a day, all in hopes that my experience will be different, that MY cycle will work. But there is no guarantee. There is no sure fire way to make this thing happen. And that makes me incredibly sad. I’ve cut out caffeine, no more fast foods, more veggies, more water, less stress, and it still may not be enough. And that really really sucks. I’m sad for my new friends who have their hearts broken tonight.

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